wasteful thinking,

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Tue, 11 Sep 2012 15:57:45 -0500

"Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love..."

Mon, 03 Sep 2012 15:13:03 -0500

“Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be…….and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe.”

- Andrea Gibson (via loveyourchaos)

it’s a #beautiful #rain.☔ (Taken with Instagram)

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 15:54:52 -0500

it’s a #beautiful #rain.☔ (Taken with Instagram)

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Thu, 07 Jun 2012 13:34:17 -0500

scrotumcoat: hot water bottle puss $79.95 bootyoftheday: Uh...

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 00:33:50 -0500

scrotumcoat:

hot water ~~bottle~~ puss

$79.95

bootyoftheday:

Uh oh.

Introducing…the Soloflesh

Well I was getting tired of my Fleshlight anyway

WHAT THE HELL?
genius.

only a #permit but hey, it’s something! (Taken with...

Tue, 29 May 2012 10:40:42 -0500

only a #permit but hey, it’s something! (Taken with instagram)

philphys: sierpinski triangle

Sat, 26 May 2012 23:43:42 -0500

philphys:

sierpinski triangle

#congrats, bud! look at all his cords and stuff. he’s so...

Sat, 19 May 2012 12:16:04 -0500

#congrats, bud! look at all his cords and stuff. he’s so special. #proudsister #graduation (Taken with instagram)

can’t ya just feel the #emotion? i love this guy with all...

Mon, 14 May 2012 22:37:07 -0500

can’t ya just feel the #emotion? i love this guy with all my heart. he’s genuinely the best friend i’ve ever had. @djwiggles, proud of you, man. got your bro-dick always. #broz4lyfe! (Taken with instagram)

i feel like i’m in a never-ending cycle. i’m fine. i’m good. i’m perfect....

Mon, 14 May 2012 01:54:13 -0500

i feel like i’m in a never-ending cycle.
i’m fine. i’m good. i’m perfect. i’m worried. i’m sad. i’m rock bottom. i’m fine. repeat.

and then there are the moments that hit me at any time. the moments where i’m unbearably scared, and i don’t know why. i’m so anxious something bad is about to happen, and i’m in my own head, and i’m psyching myself out, and my heart beats faster, and i’m clenching my fists, and i’m praying to god, and i’m closing my eyes then they’re springing wide open, and i’m lost, and someone’s watching me, and i’m almost dangling right over the edge

and i go to bed and catch my breath.
and in the morning i’m just fine.

hahah. #lookalike? ehh, better than lilo if you ask me. (Taken...

Sun, 13 May 2012 00:26:16 -0500

hahah. #lookalike? ehh, better than lilo if you ask me. (Taken with instagram)

probably not true but a very flattering #compliment nonetheless....

Thu, 10 May 2012 01:10:48 -0500

probably not true but a very flattering #compliment nonetheless. just lending a #helpinghand. have a #hearttoheart. #helpabrotherout. (Taken with instagram)

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Thu, 03 May 2012 20:05:40 -0500

"Write hard and clear about what hurts."

Fri, 27 Apr 2012 22:57:53 -0500

“Write hard and clear about what hurts.”

- Ernest Hemingway (via whatokay)

this uti has to be a physical embodiment of my guilty conscience. it’s gotten worse. reading...

Wed, 25 Apr 2012 12:56:16 -0500

this uti has to be a physical embodiment of my guilty conscience.
it’s gotten worse.
reading and relating the scarlett letter in class makes me cringe with shame.

you decide you just want to talk this morning of all mornings.

if i’m having sex with you, i want to be able to openly discuss my uti problem with you,...

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 22:50:25 -0500

if i’m having sex with you, i want to be able to openly discuss my uti problem with you, sorry.
it’s not like i’m getting graphic and
YOU DON’T KNOW HOW BAD THEY SUCK. IT’S YOUR FAULT I HAVE IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.
so be a little fucking sympathetic and less grossed out, because truth is, if i didn’t tell you i had one, you’d never know.

dear lady juliana,

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 00:15:38 -0500

i know it’s okay to move on.
and lord knows i’ve tried many times..
it’s not so much that i feel guilty as in weird.
i’m almost just disgusted with myself sometimes, though. i do things i said i’d never do. nevermind the fact i was even more naive than i am now, still.
i feel like i’m cheating myself, maybe.
i say i know i care about him, yet there i was with someone else.
i guess this is the real end maybe.
ah well, just a thought.

i decided to reply to you because i hate not letting people know the full story or misunderstanding. it’s a nasty pet peeve to have in this world, especially with this kind of technology.

anyways, thanks for the support :].

shit. i think i like him.

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 23:59:20 -0500

shit.
i think i like him.

something new.

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 23:57:25 -0500

so a friend introduced me to this guy.
i haven’t entertained the thought of anyone else for a good while now. i can’t even remember the last time.
we texted all week.
and it didn’t take very long until conversation turned dirty.

oh what you’d do if you knew.
the things i said i would do to him.
the things i said i’d let him do to me.
it’s just talk, it hardly counts, right?

wrong.
he came into town this weekend, and that talk turned into reality.
right here in this bed i’m typing from.
long and hard.
bodies sweating.
hearts pounding.
heavy breathing.
eyes meeting.

i feel like i’m cheating, so i don’t think about it. it’s been so long since i’ve had a crush on anyone besides you.
but here i am, doing it.